I spoke with my nurse practitioner today (with her stand in really, she is on vacation) and they told me that I should expect this sort of a recovery (slow) for up to 6 months. My feelings and pain sensations are not uncommon for a surgery of this type and I should expect to recover very slowly for another 4-5 months. Nerve recovery is very slow and he was not worried about what I was going through. As long as there are no spasms and there is no nerve pain, I should be fine. I should also notify them if there is a sudden loss of motor functions or sudden onset of very severe weakness.
It made me feel a little better. I totally forgot to ask what Jennifer had asked me to ask them (about getting a new prescription) but I am hoping she can do it tomorrow.
In other news, I am trying on three new pairs of shoes, at different times. The Asics 2170, the New Balance 927 and the Brooks Beast. All from Zappos, thank you very much. I LOVE Zappos.
The 927 stood out instantly. They are comfortable to wear, ugly to look at and were my instant favorite. Then I tried the Asics, which I liked the feel and look of. After that I tried on the Brooks Beast. The Beast was the worst of the lot and I felt the pain that is common. The Asics has stood at the front of the line and I have been wearing them ever since. I will continue to break them in this week and next and we shall see at that point. I have a bunch of shoes to return and I will try to find the New Balances in Black from Toledo. The Asics are on my feet right now.
My dad went fishing again today and he sounded very happy. I was very happy that he was able to go out and enjoy himself. He needs to do that some more. When he got back home, he was missing Lucien and so he went out and played with him, which sounded like so much fun as well. I miss being home.
I wonder if I passed the ITIL test?
So it has been 55 days since the surgery. Some things have gotten better, others have not.
I am taking the full dosage of Lyrica and the full dosage of Baclofen. They make me sleepy and drowsy at times. At other times, they have me shake and uneasy. I am almost always uncomfortable. This is either from the medication or because my body feels some sort of pain or electrical shock. I am irritable, very attentive to small changes in almost anything in my environment, and I am making everything miserable. I am sorry for all the sadness I am causing. Sounds depressing, but I am actually in pretty good spirits. I almost feel selfish and uncaring at times, which makes me very sad for the others in my life. But life has to go on and I have to make the best of what I have and carry on with everything.
The cramping feeling that I was complaining about has reduced to almost nothing, which is good. It was not comfortable at all when it used to happen. It made me feel like my leg was being held together with a tight and wide rubber band. I kept thinking it was like the bands used for physical therapy. But I really felt like my legs were being sucked into my body. My right leg mostly. I am really glad that this has reduced to nothing. If I am careful and don’t make things bad (I know what irritates the system) and if I take the medications on time, I can prevent this. I am thankful for this at least.
Now all I have left are tightness and tingly and burning sensation at times, along with the bends and loss of control of my leg and foot. The bends are horrible. I feel them mostly when I am driving. This is mostly when the Baclofen is starting to wear out. I have to take a pill often to maintain the levels. I also have a tightness that comes and goes in my right leg and the right side of my body. It makes me very itchy and very restless. Thankfully all the medication makes me very sleepy and I sleep like a baby. I do feel very tight and sore after I sleep.
I cannot wear any shoes besides the Merrell Barefoot Trail Glove. It has been a godsent and I really like the feel. I almost feel that IF I could run, I would go running in them. If I ever get better, I will try to go running. I did order a couple of other barefoot Merrell shoes to try them out. It is getting kind of strange to wear them to work with the orange around the edge. I know I could take a doctor’s note, but I am retarded enough. I just don’t want to make it worse.
I want to keep track of my complaints and how they rate on a scale of 10.
Pain in my right armpit: 2-3